Every new year, I find a sudden jolt of energy to do things. In the past, there were a lot of projects I wanted to do and these fresh starts always had me believing I can do and finish them. There were 365s and blogs that all ended up half-baked, and each and every time I find an excuse – be it moving houses, community service, house chores, the weather, getting pregnant, having a baby, etc.
This year, I want and will strive to change that. No resolutions, just a theme and an overall intention.
That right there is my theme for 2013. As Erica Jong put it, “We are so scared of being judged that we look for every excuse to procrastinate.“ I didn’t want to admit this to myself at first but I have somehow started to care about what others think, and it’s messed up because I do too much thinking and not much doing. I don’t know if I’ll ever go back to not caring but I want to at least be brave enough to put myself out there again. I want the joy that can be found in the act of creation to matter more.
If there was one thing that motherhood has taught me so far, it’s that I need to DO to BE. I’m not a fit mother just because I love my my son unconditionally. More important is that I do whatever it takes to make sure he’s healthy and happy. #2 on this list hits it right on the head, too. It’s not enough that I know and feel like I can string words together and capture moments. There needs to be output. I am the fruit.
With that, here be my Declaration of Intention:
This year, I will plan better and follow through. I will let go of excuses, and embrace challenges. I will honor my relationships, and love my body – extra weight, stretch marks, and all. I will stand up & share my light with the world!
Hoping for the best is all fine and dandy, but here’s to working my bum off to make sure that this will be a productive year! *raises imaginary sparkly drink